Growth

 Did I go on and on about my personal life to a point that it felt like too much information..but I can atleast try to convince myself that if you are cherishing some people in your real life for some valid reasons then why not celebrate it sometime or even record it somewhere..they are a part of your story and that part they often make wonderful too.. after all you are here on limited offer, so you just gotta cherish all of that chapters.

It took me a few months to reach this state of clarity. Once I did write down here that breakdown is the loudest and the introspection period, the longest..took all of those periods and now what I see in the mirror is much more of a fledged version of me.. I love that kind of growth on me even though what leads to that in the backdrop is often unsolicited and unpleasant.

But that being said, let me list out some of the flaws which I am seeing right now, I have become way too addicted to binge watching which I am working on quitting altogether atleast for a while.. I have become more superficial, I have become less emotionally stable, a bit more vulnerable and there is a lot to work on to bring back that sheer focus of mine, that contribution from the capri stellium energy in me, well atleast I can claim there was a time when that was my most favorite quality of mine.. I can even be specific that at the point of that diminishing is when I realized I need an introspection so badly. I gotta get me back..or atleast better myself from this point of time.

You see.no matter how much you have worked and inculcated on the much needed awareness and adaptive skills of your personality type, oh yeah knowing your personality type and gleaming it all out there often is just not enough up until you can be aware and adaptive of that because everything and every single person has flaws and at some point it is just all about how you deal with your own flaws. And as of these days I realize that the number one flaw of my personality type and the derived archetype is I have this tendency to prove,, a point, I mean my point, my character, my will, my intention,..thats a huge list.. and that goes on. (which I like as well, yeah gleaming it you know because I love my personality type).

Recently one of my classmates who is also a psychologist gave me a friendly consult and stated that my happiness quotient is more than 50% and that is a healthy number and it was also mentioned that up until she met me in person this time, based on last meetup she was expecting a much lower quotient..yeah she was actually advising me to book a consultation with her by trying to correlate my hair loss problems with my mental state of affairs then..well what can I say a lot of follihair tabs went into fixing that mental state of affairs :D. So her point was that it could be that I have become or adapted more to be on the dominant side, internally and externally, mindwise.. I think that is a good thing and over some stretch of time which I am not willing to foresee now I might put a pause on rambling on and on, here, well I won't but yeah atleast the personal would stay personal. lets see ..fingers crossed. 

Now that definitely is growth..