Today - a short story

When mom said, 'ninakku dhosham varunna oru karyavum arinjondu njangal cheyyilla mole', I was not in the right mood to accept what she said, that's how strong that accusation on my insecurity and anxiety issues were..but mom confirmed 'ethaandu ningalu samsarichu thudangunnathinu oru maasam munneyavanam njan aa cake decoration classinu poyidathu vechu avane kanunne..oru maasam munne veroru penkuttiyude fiance aanennu paranju nadanna oruthane enganeya mole ninne viswasichu elpichu kodukkan pattua..orikkal pattiya thettu thiruthan thanneya njangal anweshiche pakshe avidunnu angane thettayi onnum ariyan pattiyilla..ini theerumanam ninte kayyil aanu, nee ithu mathi nnu tharappichu paranjal pappa angottu vilikum, athu Avan aayirunnillannu avan urapichu parayunna sthithik ithu nadakan vendi njanum enik thettu pattiyathanennu paranjolaam pakshe enik urappanu athu avan thanne ayirunnennu, vettu konda Kai thalakku vekkanda avastha aavaruthu.. ninte jeevitham aanu aalochichu oru theerumanam edukku..

R..di I messed up once and we tried and tried to patch things up but you couldn't get over it and we failed miserably..if someone says he wants to open up about everything that happened in his past to you but lies about one thing which you asked..if he has denied that she was his ex gf so that he can stay connected with his celebrity ex gf, then no matter what he says you as an individual doesn't matter much to him and he is being selectively open..don't trust..

Sak.. 'hey bday girl, I know I'm atleast two weeks late but I was out of station. So happier bday bum🥳..what's happening'..yaar good news marriage is almost getting fixed..'thats good news but do I miss the roar' . Chitter chatter probs..'should i be involved' ..nah..'say know'.. he was a saint when we started talking so I felt like I have to really open up, talked about everything including crushes, interests, guys who were interested in me and how I'm still connected to some of them, I even told about you yaar, went on and on about my ex bf..he even used to mock me about all of that. A week or two later when he opened up, not so much the saint..what bugged me is the overlaps and even the reasons why he ended some of those, silly reasons yaa,..few days back he said something which involved him and my best friends elder sister, too much to digest for me..these people, I talk with them often yaa..and yesterday when I asked whether is this person you follow on insta your ex gf, he just lied about it...i did a thorough digging yesternight, there is this one account __qaaynaat which follows only him, no one follows back and I saw one comment on one of his posts from this handle which he liked as well..we started talking on April 19, this account has a reel from April 13th, a bike ride, road looks like waynad hairpin pass last stretch, I'm sure he is driving and that's a girl holding the cam, I'm sure. On April 19th he ended our convo talking about visiting my home to seal this deal over a cup of tea for pennukaanal..how could someone so idealistic even talk like that to another person within 5 days.. either this connection is a rebound or he just doesn't value women at all no matter what he says..how long do you think it would take for a guy to get over a 2 year old live in relationship..' well i didn't know you were looking for someone but let me say it's all about what the guy wants and his preferences at that point of time, so don't think of it as a rebound or anything but take it dead slow, don't get involved until you have clarity, as sad as it is when it comes to guys there's never assurance on anything especially with that pattern, you know old habits die hard, but seriously I didn't know you were looking for someone'..something happened in April ya, I posted a dance reel and got to hear some offensive remarks didn't take it well, felt like if I have someone by my side i wouldn't have to hear such things..'hmm understood.. take care, think through, stay in touch, wishing you the best. ' ..thanks ya.

Long back he once told 'hey hey you don't know how attracted I'm to you right now but the kind of person I'm, i don't wanna be an opportunist with you, you are good'. .so let's stay friends ya? (I should stop that I know, I'm getting older and I should get serious with my life too).. over the past 4 months, honestly there were many a times i thought of reaching out to him but I was too hurt to even do anything about it because I was not sure whether I would be willing to trust anyone ever again or not.. but a guy who didn't want anything from you giving the most valuable advise to you at the right time without expecting anything from you, are guys even capable of that when they are dealing with girls? That was rare isn't it..I think he unfollowed me a few days back which I noticed today, I'm sure he would have his reasons, I honestly feel like I missed a chance and hopefully I wish I wouldn't regret it..that timing is sometimes never right or you are looking in the wrong direction for all the wrong reasons.. you are awesome pal, i would value that advise forever..thanks. [we talked in the morning and we still are good friends and I wish him the best with his life😊]..but for that advise of his, that person would be remembered forever..oh man..guys can be selfless too..